Monday, February 14, 2011
Why do I not go straight to my knees and His Word?
A few months ago Dan got home from Iraq again and we wanted to spend some time doing some marriage counseling. This wasn't because we had major problems, this is just something that we decided we wanted to do every year or 2 as a way to keep our relationship growing.
Strangely, the biggest blessing was that it didn't work out. We tried to get together with our pastor but stuff just kept happening.
Once again, I was trying to go to someone other than the Lord.
The last 6-8 mo have been tough.
The entire summer we were living in TX and KS, back and forth constantly.
I got pregnant in Aug (planned and rejoiced over!) and the first trimester was quite difficult.
The summer was filled with me struggling with the idea that I was "just a mom" now.
Pregnancies have been the hardest times Dan and I have had to face in our marriage.
Dan was discharged from the military in Oct. and the hunt for work began... still hunting.
During pregnancy my hormones are all out of whack and I have had serious bouts of depression.
Our little Izzie is no longer a baby and the need for true training in righteousness increases everyday.
We are really struggling with the decision of whether or not I should go back to work full time for a year or 2.
And baby no. 2 is ONLY 6 weeks away!!
The Lord has been so faithful!!
I didn't need counseling from anyone but Him.
I have been learning to praise Him for the struggles that force me to the only One who is sufficient.
So many blessings of the last few months!
Dan has been able to find jobs that have made ends meet.
The sickness only lasted the first trimester of this pregnancy.
I don't have to face another deployment- birthdays, anniversaries, holidays without Dan.
My Dr found a new medication that is helping tremendously with the depression.
Somehow our savings has lasted SO MUCH longer than it should have.
The Lord continues to show me what an honor it is to raise children.
We found out we're having a little BOY!
The water heater wasn't broken after all.
Izzie is not nearly headstrong as her Mommy and Daddy.
We have gotten through the winter so far without a single ear infection.
My dad gave me the best gift in the world- a remodeled bathroom with a TUB!!!!
And theres ONLY 6 weeks left till Levi gets here!!!
God is good.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I love winter weather, but I have to say it is quite different with a child. Being couped up is so much worse when you have a little ankle-biter dying to go outside or get out of the house. And it's been even worse because all the cousins have all been sick at one point or another so we're trying to keep them apart as much as possible. I now know why mommies are always saying that they can't wait till spring. God continues to show me new ways that it was great that He moved us back to TX!!!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
Chillin' in a cardboard box with our favorite gal pal, Jillian.
Checking out the pumpkins at the pumpkin patch.
"Loving" the snow! :)
She looks like the kid off of A Christmas Story.
Lets go sledding!
A rare picture of Dan and me.
Monday, January 24, 2011
This is a bumper sticker that I recently saw on the back of one of the newest, "coolest" minivans on the market and it inspired a Kelso family blog redesign.
Dan and I- we used to be cool. We loved late night poker games, camping in sub-freezing weather, UFC fights, catching a no-name band at a pub, roadtrips to absolutely nowhere with absolutely no planning . . . or gear, going to the movies to catch the latest comedy. I loved shopping for clothes and decorating. Dan loved to fish and sit around talking with the guys about "man-stuff," whatever that is.
Yeah, we used to be cool... I think. At least we felt that way.
"They" say having children changes things and boy are they right! Whoever "they" are.
Cool is gone! The things we get excited about now...
getting to bed early
avoiding our turn to change the dirty diaper
getting through a meal at a restuarant without a complete and total meltdown
teaching Izzie to throw away her own diapers
hand-me-down kids clothes
the spit-up hitting the floor instead of our shirt... or face
GOING TO WALMART ALONE!
making it through a whole movie before falling asleep
getting out a few times a month just Dan and I
It sounds all bad, but that couldn't be farther from the truth. Even though becoming parents has changed our lives tremendously, its definitely not for the worst. Sure at first glance it doesn't seem "cool" to have spit-up crusted hair or poop on your freshly washed bed sheets. But our definition of cool has been changing over the last couple of years, especially over the last few months.
I wont lie, just a few months ago I was struggling. I am big pregnant with stretch marks that make me look like I belong on Animal Planet. It seemed like everyday something new happened that made me think... "i used to be cool" and now I'm just a mommy. All day everyday. I hear that this is a common emotion for mothers, so I'm hoping that I'm not the only one. But the Lord has been doing some amazing work on my heart.